Trying to Conceive Again

Trying to have a baby isn't as fun when it leaves you feeling defective... If you are struggling to conceive your first or another baby here is my advice.

Before Baby Comes Check-List

I scoured the internet for hours looking for pregnancy to-do lists and pre-baby prep lists. The more I looked through the more frustrated I got. List after list containing to-do items like "drink lots of water", "get plenty of rest" and "pamper yourself with a pedicure". That's cute, and all well and good if you're looking for a sweet list to remind you to take a piss every couple hours. I was looking for a serious pre-baby check list. One with actual necessity items not all this fluffy sh**!

Pregnancy Panic

We released a collective sigh of relief once we made it past the terrifying first trimester of pregnancy. I naively expected to be able to sit back, relax and watch my belly grow...
If I had truly thought long and hard about it I would have realized that conforming your body to hold a whole new person inside an already pretty cramped space wouldn't be easy or comfortable.

The Loss of Hope After Recurrent Miscarriage

When I started this blog I wasn't sure how much I wanted to share about our fertility struggles. I talked myself out of my mothers day post as well as avoided blogging after positive pregnancy tests. I didn't want to be a Debbie Downer and drag other people down with my own misery. I have changed my mind about not blogging this part of our journey, not because I sadistically want to  spread misery but because perhaps sharing what I'm going through will help someone else know they aren't alone. I also hope getting it out will act as a kind of therapy for myself as well. This is my story so far...